Updates again

It's been more than a mth since i last blogged... hmmm... done lotsa things that makes me happy. Set a new goal with Sandie and seeing wat we need to do to achieve it. So far, nothing reali comes up cos we are so busy in our life, relationship and work. Ashie is doing well and enjoying her workouts. Eileen... she is getting stronger everyday and she got a job and will be starting work on Monday!!! Woohoo!!! Meow Meow... still smiling widely and making ppl ard her hapi even tho she is having prob with Garfield... Lurve you ger. Sandie... I m worried abt her... her work and her r/s with Gab... just hope she can be strong and stay positive... (I need that too). If there is a need for confirmation on a relationship... it;s best to do it. Hanging there not knowing you r both together or not together is tough and tormenting...

Ho ho... I am still single and glad to be one now as i need some time and space to be alone as well. Thot my feelings for Dior is gone but realised it hasn't... Din realise till i received a simple sms last Sunday evening that says I miss u. 3 simple words are enuff to confuse me once again. I actuali teared alittle, din cry... cun cry... not enuff tears to cry i guess... I dunno wat he means by he miss me... It actuali makes me feel he still care and still wants to talk and work things out btw us. Been pondering if I should wait for him to come back next year... Then something i discovered on Wednesday nite manage to crush me once again. I wun say wat he did but it gives me the idea he is trying to hold me back while searching for a new woman in Sydney. It reali hurts and make me feel like hating him but i just cun... and I thank the Holy Spirit in me for that. Just glad i knew abt this and wun waste my time waiting for him again.

Me and Don (yes, him again), nothing much happen between us. But manage to sort my feelings for him and figure there will never be a future for us. He is simply to cold and 'hard' for an emotional, warm and 'soft' person like me. Keke... To me when two people r in a relationship, it's not abt business anymore. It's abt two people being together (spirit, mind and soul). Wish he can open up to me, tell me wat's in his mind, his happiness and sadness. Wat make him so stress and always in a defence mode. I may not be able to understand and give advise... at least to let him know no matter wat, he is not alone anymore. But guess he just dun have any idea wat love is.

Dad has not been feeling well since Mon... not my fault~~~ It's not me that pass the virus to him k... (oh, FYI, I have been pretty sick for a week as well with fever, cough, sore throat, blocked nose and bodyache... and now itchy rashes on my chest... arh!!!)... okie... Thou we still dunno wat is wrong. He has been feeling so tired and weak for many days... sleeping and dozing off, not eating much... The medicines he took doesn't seems to work... Atlast, grandma and aunt ask him to go hospital for a check up to see if it's dengue fever cos there has been 2 case of dengue fever at our side recently. He still refuse to go~~~ my gosh... never know a man so stubborn like my dad... he only went when my bro and his gf drove all the way down to bring him to hospital. My youngest bro also went straight down from office and that was like 11 plus at nite. So hardworking of him... lol~~~ Anyways, the result comes out clean. Nothing was found. But the doctor refer him to National Skin Center if i m not wrong for another test to confirm. He went yesterday and was told to go down for another one on Mon. Gosh... all the blood lose... But thank God he is feeling beta... he actuali went to the market with mum this morning and eating again. Just hope everything is fine.

Okie, I would like to thank 'U know who u are" if you are reading this blog for accompanying me with the wait and sorry that u have to sleep so so 'early' in the morning and be late for work. Can imagine how stoned u r yesterday cos i m stoned to the stonest... Hope it doesn't affect your work. Keke... u r a great friend for being there to entertain me all the way till the wait is over with your crappy Bombai da, India, Butter chicken, Singapore and Mr India Curry House. Owe you a meal friend! Let's go for India food k (Indian Slang)~~~ lol